I've been incredibly busy the past two months right after EVO finished and have barely given myself a chance to really rest a little. While it's great that I've been so productive, it's very easy to keep rushing forward and lose sight of where I'm headed. With getting one audio project done after another and switching from one new game to the next, both work and play has kept me busy.
What eventually broke this chain and gave me a bit more to think about was an offer a friend gave me. The same friend that I helped with a project back in July was now able to officially hire me for contract work and asked me a few weeks ago about doing it. I thought about it for a while and ended up initially turning down the offer and decided to focus on music since I was incredibly motivated and inspired the past few weeks. He eventually contacted me again last week and really tried to convince me to take the job. In my mind, I felt it was unnecessary for my participation. But he was adamant on specifically having me do it. I was rather surprised by his enthusiasm and started to consider if I could put aside time for it. I asked for more details with the duration of the job in particular and it's about 4 weeks. After spending nearly an hour trying to persuade me, I eventually sort out how I was going to approach taking this job, slowing down on my audio work, and then continuing what I was doing after those 4 weeks of work time in my head and agreed to take the job.
Honestly, I felt bad for making my friend work so hard to try to convince me to take the job when I've been complaining about not getting any job opportunities for so long. Having been so unfocused all year since returning from Japan, I didn't want to ignore the motivation and inspiration I've recently gained and so I've been fervently working on remixes and continue to do so until I start on that job. In any case, here are the remixes I've finished the past 2 months.
On the videogaming side, I've jumped from playing Fire Emblem Three Houses to having to switch to Astral Chain, then to Daemon X Machina, and now Code Vein. With no more pre-order games in mind (other than Mario & Sonic at the Olympics 2020 in November), I can kind of relax a little on time constraint and slowly take on those 4 games. With the amount of work and games I've been putting time into recently, I felt almost as blind as I was before I got so motivated. I think that's why it's important to me to take one day out of each month like this to write in my blog to be able to reflect and clear my mind a bit so I can stay on the path I want to head towards. You can say I've been pretty happy with the amount of progress I've been able to cover in both work and games the past two months, and yet I still feel empty at times. I want to be able to reach a point in my life again where the uncertainty of my future feels exciting rather than daunting. My trip to Japan proved that my life still has that potential.
As we get into the Autumn season, I push forward towards my short-term goals and hope that it helps my long-term goals.
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