I missed posting anything the past two months, which I don't think has ever happened before two months in a row. In June, I had planned on talking about playing Guilty Gear Strive, PSO2: New Genesis, Samurai Shodown and Scarlet Nexus as well as all the games announced during that month. But some stuff happened that felt too personal to post about. I was emotionally and mentally fatigued. I was supposed to spend June relaxing and playing games. And while I was able to play games, they were only a slight distraction from what was happening in my personal life. I spent July picking myself back up and trying to get back into productivity with language learning and practicing music. July is kind of a blur for me, but I do remember getting through a lot of games. August has also been kind of a blur, and I only completed two games. I spent a lot of August practicing piano, exercising, and trying to get better at Guilty Gear Strive.
Guilty Gear Strive has been a rollercoaster ride of learning something new and getting better, maybe performing more consistently, and then getting beat by everyone I go against and realizing I've already fallen behind. I am having a lot of fun with Guilty Gear Strive, but I think it also came with some frustration as everyone is getting better faster than me while I tried to improve since I'm really putting the effort this time around to get better at a fighting game. I think the frustration comes from the fact that no matter how much I try to learn and improve, it never seems to be enough to keep up. It's ironic because it's also part of what makes it fun since the game keeps evolving and changing so there's always something new to learn or do. As for all the other games: I played quite a few hours of PSO2: New Genesis, but haven't played much since June. I played a few rounds of Samurai Shodown on Arcade mode and do enjoy it, but it does feel a bit lonely not being able to play it with anyone. I played about 10 hours of Scarlet Nexus and haven't continued in a long time, but plan to soon. The reason for that was I picked up Blaster Master Zero 3 last month and have spent all my free time playing through it in August. What usually happens is whenever I do have free time, I end up playing Guilty Gear Strive because I have that drive to keep improving.
Aside from that, I got to spend some time with friends in August as my family and I are finally fully vaccinated and I feel less paranoid about seeing people now. I haven't seen some of them in 2 years and some of them haven't seen each other in over 5 years. Two of them moved back home, so I have a higher chance of seeing them and hanging out than we have in the past decade.
Over half of the year is already over and I'm just wondering if it's right for me to keep stalling my main objective of finishing my portfolio and applying for jobs or even just working on more audio work. I keep finding other ways to occupy my time, probably because it's the first time in many years where I'm learning new things and experiencing different activities rather than just constantly focusing on music composition/production. I'm almost done with all my short term goals that I wanted to do and will continue on my main project soon.
