Today's New Year's Eve. As I've said in my last post, this has been a very fast year. The past week and a half has been great and awful at the same time. I got to hang out with friends, see family, play games, and just relax; however, I've been almost unbearably ill since last Monday till now. I'm pretty much in the same position I was in near the end of 2012 where I also fell ill and decided to take better care of myself in 2013 (of which I did a very good job of). But this year, in 2014, I kind of fell back on it in favor of getting work done and stay up all night to play games with friends. In 2014, I was very inconsistent with going to the gym (but at least I kept up with it instead of giving it up entirely) and my sleep schedule slipped back into it's terrible juggle of sleeping between 3-5 AM and waking up at 11AM-1PM. And the worst thing was I acquired a taste for spicy food this year. If I go out, I eat spicy food. If I'm home cooking, I add all sorts of spicy sauces. So for the past 1.5 weeks, I've been having a problem with my stomach where it constantly feels hungry, is always churning and feels like it's burning, I keep feeling like I want to throw up, and in the worst times I can't even find the appetite to eat when I'm starving. As the days progressed, I started developing dizziness, dry throat, fatigue and susceptibility to coldness. I finally feel somewhat stable today with only a lingering hunger feeling, slight churning and feeling a bit light-headed. I can't wait to fully recover and feel okay again, for I'm looking forward to 2015.
I felt hesitant and unsure of myself in the beginning of 2014, but I felt like I was able to accomplish enough. I don't want to say "a lot" since I never really feel satisfied with how much I do and always want to accomplish more. But this time around, I'm very excited about 2015 and what I want to do with my time. Working on the Ultima: Exodus Remix Project was an eye opener to what I want to do with the time I have while I wait for job replies. Also, Camera Obscura was finally Greenlit yesterday! I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw the email. Whether this is a breaking point for me is unclear, I just know I want to continue working on my own projects while I continue searching for a job because it feels fulfilling and it feels right. It's what I should be doing and what I've been wanting throughout my life but couldn't do before. I just bought a bunch of new samples and loops to work with on Music Creator 6 and I'm planning on buying Open Canvas 6 today. So I plan on producing even more work in 2015. I'll probably be doing a more detailed reflective review of my year in 2014 in the next few days, but for now I just want a speedy recovery.
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