I feel tired...why am I tired?

I'm feeling rather lethargic recently, but I haven't been working THAT hard this month.  I've been getting my portfolio straightened out and it's finished!  Or so I thought.  I might be applying to a position that involves working with sound effects and not music.  So now I've got to find some of the work I did with sound effects, which makes me nervous.  Sound effects isn't exactly my forte and I enjoy working with music more.  But it's been exactly 3 years as of this month since I've had a real job, so I need to take advantage of the opportunity now that it's available.  On the bright side, my resumé has been updated and looks stronger.  I've also updated my LinkedIn account, though I really need to add a picture to it.  I guess I mainly feel tired whenever I think about having to look for job openings and going through the whole process of applying since I've done it so many times in the past 4 years.  But once I've gone through some job searches, I want to get back into working with some more projects while I wait for a response back.

I finally have a PS Vita!  Yay!  And then a week after, fans complain that the PS Vita is being ignored entirely by Sony during the Gamescom Convention.  I said I'd buy a PS Vita if Phantasy Star Nova or Senran Kagura Shinovi Versus was being released here in America, and the latter was announced for a physical copy release.  It was quite the day when I decided to buy one, because it was apparently sold out EVERYWHERE.  I went around the city to three different GameStops and 2 Targets and picked up Ragnarok Odyssey ACE and Hyperdimension Neptunia PP while a PS Vita slim Bundle was nowhere to be found.  I decided to go home and buy one from Amazon because I still saw it available 2 days prior that day.  I get on Amazon only to find out that they're sold out and the sellers listed were posting it for $250 rather than the original $200.  I looked online in other stores and every store was sold out other than BestBuy.  So I ended up ordering it online from BestBuy while I bought Ys: Memories of Celceta and Persona 4 Golden along with a PS Vita Slim Grip on Amazon.  Amazingly, I got the PS Vita 2 days after and got to play it over that weekend.  I tried Hyperdimension Neptunia PP for about 40 mintues before I switched it back to Ragnarok Odyssey ACE and decided to take it one game at a time.  I've already accumulated 38 hours on RO ACE in the past 3 weeks and love it!
And I love it even more when my grip came in because it's not comfortable holding the PS Vita, just like the PSP.  The grip makes it less portable, but it's a world of difference in ergonomics.  But the device is not without faults.  It took way too long to just set up the system to play.  The device has WAY too many arbitrary functions and makes me wonder if they would have saved more money if they hadn't spent so much on certain things (besides the applications, there's the backside touch sensor that's rarely used).  It's quite evident that Sony isn't making a huge profit out of the Vita because they're not restocking it in stores and they're not promoting it as often as they should.  I also don't like how the battery life is barely 5 hours.  I have to recharge my PS Vita every 1-2 days while I recharged my 3DS every 6-8 days when I first got it (meaning when I was playing it every day).  Despite its shortcomings, I really like my PS Vita and really enjoy Ragnarok Odyssey ACE as my first game for it.  I can't wait to play all the other games I'll be getting for it.

One game I played a whole bunch recently was Dishonored.  I had heard so much about the game but never really looked into it because I had always planned on getting it when it was cheap enough.  I had purchased it back in Steam Winter Sales 2013 but didn't get around to playing it until the summer time.  I finally played through it all in July and loved it!  I played it through two more times just to try out new things.  First time around, I played it entirely stealth.  Second playthrough, I went as aggressive as possible and killed everyone I came across.  On my last run, I tried to get through the game as fast as possible while killing as few people as possible (which ended up being 4-5 people, I think) and finished at around 3 hours when it took me 18 hours the first time to beat it.  The game's a beautiful mix between Action and Stealth and works so well together.  Dishonored was a really good game and I enjoyed playing it enough time to play it 3 times in a row.  And then I played a bunch of games that I thought was okay or boring.  I finally got through ICO and thought it was okay.  The game's solid with its design and concept, but I was only mildly entertained by it.  The Swapper was also okay.  Although the idea behind the game and level designs were great, I got kind of bored after a while.  Platformines started off being really fun, but became really stupid as I finished it.  It's also one of the very few games where I had to mute the music because it was so distracting and annoying that I couldn't keep it on anymore:
I finally got through Arcania: Gothic 4 and Arcania: Fall of Setarrif this week.  I bought those two games back in Steam Summer Sale 2012.  The game was full of graphic glitches, the combat was boring, the voice acting was really off in a lot of parts, and I was always at a loss of where to go next.  Throughout the entire time, I was wishing I was playing Divinity 2 or Two Worlds 2 instead.  I considered quitting the game many times but was stubborn and kept to it.  Arcania wasn't a very good game, yet I kind of had a fulfilling adventure from it.  Traveling around the open world, meeting all sorts of quirky characters, and fighting a bunch of enemies all felt like an adventure from a fantasy novel.  So in a sense, I enjoyed the experience of adventure and didn't enjoy the gameplay so much.  It's hard to describe the game's worth, but I supposed I can say that I don't regret playing through it.  I also understand why people were so upset with Fall of Setarrif after I finished it in 2.3 hours.  It's essentially a more conclusive ending to the original game, but it wasn't that great.

After completing ICO, I've finally started Final Fantasy XIII-2.  The gameplay is the same and so it's not that exciting; however, I find the story of the game to be compelling and interesting compared to the first one.  I'm enjoying it.

In terms of animé, I've been watching Love Live! School Idol Project.

I remember seeing the game on iOS and downloaded it to play it and thought it was only okay.  You get songs really slowly, and the songs aren't as memorable.  But then a friend recommended that I watch the animé and so I did after I finished "Is the Order a Rabbit?"  I really enjoy the show!  I haven't been paying that much attention to animé since it's already hard to enough to keep up with videogames, but there certainly are a lot of shows I want to watch.  I still lean more towards Slice-of-Life and comedy animé, though.  I'm not sure if I can handle watching anymore depressing shows.  Even so, I feel like I should really watch Attack on Titan and Evangelion (both original and new).

I really do feel tired and just want to play games and watch animé all day, though.  But I think it's a really bad time for me to be doing that right now.  I want to stay productive.  Even if I can find a job opening to apply for, I still want to spend the day making more music and working on projects.  The idea of being able to play games freely and enjoy myself at this time does sound very inviting, though.